do you worry? about everything and everyone and anything worth overthinking. do you ruin your happiness trying to compare yourself, your life to someone else? do you find the sleepless nights, the tired days, the broken lies you say to be helpful to you? you sit and you fret and tell people around you, people who love you that you're okay...just a little "tired". but are you really okay? are you really just tired? or are you trying to hide the fact that you just don't understand where your life is going or why you feel you are losing control. and why everyone you trusted seems to be leaving you, betraying you. and you wonder why every time you seem to take a step forward something so small and minuscule can move you back two steps. and you blame yourself for your mistakes and negativity. you use excuses to cope with your emotion, to numb your feeling, and to temporarily fight your demons for you. and you try to ask for help in creative ways without actually using the phrase, "i need help". instead you let your eyes, your behavior, your vibe testify for you, because you're afraid of disappointment or being ridiculed. or the worst of all, misused.
am i talking to you right now? are you still with me?
can you relate to these feelings? you know what it's been like to be here.
you still do some of this, don't you? handling this on your own because you think your alone.
but your ready for this cycle to end? I know you are.
but you don't think it could? and i know it can.
you want to know why I know this? i been in your shoes, sometimes i still am.
going back and forth with your own doubt and your own reason.
but take a deep breath...and keep reading.
The key to making this terrible energy go away, the key to unlock your door to happiness is right here. You'll probably be mad when I tell you but I encourage you not to. You may become frustrated with yourself because you had this key the whole time, but I encourage you not to. It gets hard to realize what you have when you're surrounded by so much bad, when your mind is clouded with negativity. But the key to finding your true happiness, to remove yourself out this space, to mold a positive pathway to your new success:
is you.
You ultimately decide how you feel. You have to make that decision to want to wake up and not be this pessimistic person anymore. You have to believe that you won't be the old version of yourself anymore. You have to want change, you have to seek the good in every situation, you have to ask for help when you need it. You have to stop practicing bad habits and you have to stop blaming yourself when you fail. You have to accept failure and keep telling yourself that you're better because of it. You have to do all these things to see improvement. And it can get hard, but know this. You can do it! Because you are courageous, you are ambitious, you are passionate, you are intuitive and brilliant. You are significant to your family and your friends. You are going to do amazing things, your past will not define the greatness in your future....
because YOU are strong. You are going to get through this. No matter
who you are, or what you went through, you deserve and will get better. So pick yourself up
and dust off that pain and negativity. Because where your going that isn't allowed.Take a deep breath... Grab
your key and open your new life's door...
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